mostly because i'm not teaching. in fact, i'm blogging.
it's the last day of school before winter break so only half of my students are here to begin with; plus it's just impossible to teach on a day like this. add to that the fact that i have to pack up and move out of my classroom by the end of the day. if i'm not provided an acceptable environment to teach in because i have to pack up all of my things, then i can't teach.
don't tell them, but i am feeling this teeny, tiny, flickering of a feeling that i'll miss some of these kids over the break. not too much, but a little. i've spent the past 16 weeks with them!!!! even the obnoxious ones are sweet from time to time. one student who gives me a really hard time (a textbook case for attention deprivation) and who i just yelled at to "knock it off" came up to me to ask why i hadn't tried the cake he brought yet. he brought it for me, he said. so i did and now he's stopped punching girls and bouncing a basketball off the walls. they're such a sensitive bunch.
and they still give hugs too! like i'm a kindergarten teacher! "miss, is it okay if i hug you goodbye?"
sometimes i have to remember that they are just kids. and appreciate them as kids if i can't appreciate them as students.